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CBT performance @ StarTek's 09 Christmas Party

Jan. 1st, 2010 | 01:50 pm

Last December 5 Startek celebrated it's Christmas Party at Manila Ocean Park. Newest account on the block, CBT, performed in accordance to the Sinbad and the Seven Seas theme.

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65 Days

Aug. 4th, 2009 | 04:00 pm

65 days ~ for some it may be short... for me, this was an eternity. This was the amount of time that I spent in the States. This does not include the time I left or the time I was travelling 17 hours from the Philippines to Cincinnati and vice-versa.

This was also the longest that I've ever been away from my family. The longest I've been away from my kids ever since I brought them out into this world. It was an adventure since this was the first I would be get to the US and it would have been better if my family were with me. I made new friends ~ at the hotel which we treated as home for 2 months (our cleaning lady, all the receptionists, the manager), at work (guys from CBT and Pomeroy alike) and people all around in general (yes, even the food server at McDonald's). It was an experience that I would never probably would do again and of course, I am thankful to my employer, for giving me this.

In a lot of ways, I believe it made me grow. Yes, after 40 years of life in this earth, I am still growing. I have learned to live alone. I have learned how to communicate better (it was hard doing this through email, cellphone and chat). And most important of all, I have learned that nothing in the world could replace my family. I have also rebuilt relationships with people that mattered to me in the past - my best friend, my childhood friends, my in-laws and my aunt. Thanks to this trip, I was able to see them again (I have not seen my cousins since they left the Philippines in 1986 and I have not seen my nephew since he was born last year).

I am back in the busy humdrum of office work but I continue to keep in touch with some of the people I have met there. I made sure I filled out the survey form from the hotel and gave them an almost excellent rating not just for the service but for the friendship. Memories are good but only if you hold on to them. So, I am grasping to the last threads of my everyday-diminishing memory and everyday-building memory gap. Another thanks perhaps should be given to the person who invented pictures because now all I have to do is go into my storage drive and view all the photos I took and cherish the time I spent there.

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Excerpts from Eleven Minutes

Sep. 10th, 2008 | 10:56 am

I have just finished reading Eleven Minutes and although there were moments when I really wanted to put the book down and forget about it, there are a lot of things I've learned through it. Everything from love, sex, dessire, passion and prostitution hehe. So here are some of the most interesting excerpts from the book:

Everything tells me I’m about to make a wrong decision, but making mistakes is just part of life. Wht does the world want of me? Does it want me to take no risks, to go back where I came from because I didn’t have the courage to say “yes” to life?
I have to be faithful to myself. If I’m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system. The little experience of life I’ve had has taught me that no one owns anything, at everything is an illusion – and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine. It’s best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.
Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace.  A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.
No one wants their life thrown into chaos. That is why a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a house or a structure that is already rotten. They are the engineers of the superseded.
Other people think exactly the opposite: they surrender themselves without a second thought, hoping to find passion the solutions to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected just ruined everything.
Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it – which of these two attitudes is the least destructive?
I don’t know.
Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before – the attraction that brought them together – is impossible to explain. It is untouched desire in its purest state.
When desire is still in this pure state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.
When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of every second.
Everyone knows how to love, because we are all born with that gift. Some people have a natural talent for it, but the majority of use have to re-learn, to remember how to love, and everyone, without exception, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relive certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs, until they can see the connecting thread that exists behind each new encounter; because there is a connecting thread.
And then, our bodies learn to speak the language of the soul, known as sex, and that is what I can give to the man who gave me back my soul, even though he has no idea how important he is to my life. That is what he asked me for and that is what we will have; I want him to be very happy.
It’s true that we can only know each other when we come up against our own limits, but it’s wrong too, because it isn’t necessary to know everything about ourselves; human beings weren’t made solely to go in search of wisdom, but also to plough the land, wait for rain, plant the wheat, harvest the grain, make the bread.
I am two women: one who wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me. The other wants to be a slave to routine, to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved. I’m a housewife and a prostitute, both of us living in the same body and doing battle with the other.
The meeting of these two women is a game with serious risks. A divine dance. When we meet, we are two divine energies, two universes colliding. If the meeting is not carried out with due reverence, one universe destroys the other.
Every human being experiences his or her own desire; it is part of our personal treasure and, although, as an emotion, it can drive people away, generally speaking, it brings those who are important to us closer. It is an emotion chosen by my soul, and it is so intense that it can infect everything and everyone around me.
Each day I choose the truth by which I try to live, I try to be practical, efficient, professional. But I would like to be able always to choose desire as my companion. Not out of obligation, not to lessen my loneliness but because it is good. Yes, very good.
Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.
In all the languages in the world, there is the same proverb: “What the eyes don’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve over”. Well, I say that there isn’t an ounce of truth in it. The further off they are, the closer to the heart are all those feelings that we try to repress and forget. If we’re in exile, we want to store away every tiny memory of our roots. If we’re far from the person we love, everyone we pass in the street reminds us of them.
The gospels and all the sacred texts of all the religions were written in exile, in search of God’s understanding, of the faith that moves whole peoples, of the pilgrimage of souls wandering the face of the earth. Our ancestors did not know, as we do not know, what the Divinity expects from our lives – and it is out of that doubt that books are written, pictures painted, because we don’t want to forget who we are – nor can we.

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The Twilight Saga

Aug. 25th, 2008 | 09:38 am
mood: creative

I read in a newspaper a couple of weeks ago about a Twilight event somewhere around the metro. Got curious and got myself a copy of the first of the series which was entitled "Twilight". Main character is Bella Swan, daughter of Forks chief of police. The story revolves how she discovers Forks is not your ordinary town. It is being populated by vampires and shape-shifters (okay, werewolves). The first of the saga revolves around her falling in love with the vampire, Edward Cullen. The second, New Moon, talks about being apart from Edward and developing a close friendship with the werewolf, Jacob. The third, Eclipse, is about their love triangle. And the last, Breaking Dawn, is about their marriage, their baby and her eventual transformation into a vampire with special powers. This definitely broke the mold in vampire love stories. Hats off to Stephenie Meyer for even coming up with this imaginary world. In a span of a week, I have managed to finish all four books (the first I finished in less than 24 hours). This surpasses even my Harry Potter record! I have already infected some of my colleagues at work and would not stop raving about it. Good thing I discovered this book when the final chapter got released so I didn't have to hold my breath waiting for the next. Again, Kudos to Stephenie! I am now a believer. :)  


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Are Men Jerks?

Jul. 30th, 2008 | 03:32 pm

For the past few months, I have delved into a frenzy of self-help books on relationships. This has tremendously helped me a lot into changing my outlook on relationships and also in strengthening what I have. One book that I have read was entitled "All Men Are Jerks" *Until proven otherwise. It really was an enlightening read for me because the situations that the author narrated were more or less situations that I have also encountered in the past. Let me give you some excerpts from that book so that it can assist you in your own relationship issues about men.

Everyone knows at least one strong, self-confident woman whose common sense seems to evaporate when a man acts interested, says the right things and satisfies some specific needs. A lot of women share this blind spot - their need to have a man in their life exposes them to unnecessary heartache.

I used to routinely fall for men with problems. Once they hooked me, I stayed hooked. I'd let them wring almost everything I had out of me before I realized the relationship wasn't healthy. Bailing out was never my game plan. I always saw some good worth saving. The Queen of Nurturers would heal him. Maybe my relationships would have been different had I not walked around on tiptoe from the beginning, always afraid to rock the boat. I usually got a subtle message "Be a good girl or you'll be alone." And I was good, keeping my mouth shut about everything that bothered me. Each man I fell for knew he could do almost anything - and I'd still be there. I convinced myself that if I showed him I could stick out the bad times, he'd change into the man I wanted him to be. It never happened.

As my self-esteem grew, it became clearer that a man who didn't satisfy my needs would never bring me happiness. I had to risk rocking the boat to express my needs. It was finally possible for me to accept that being in pain half the time wasn't worth the good I got from him. I was giving my need for a man too much importance in my quest for fulfillment and happiness.

As cynical as I may sound, I do love men and get along well with them. My male friends are terrific, I'm still on good terms with my ex.

We often create the very jerks we complain about. When we put our need for a man before our common sens, we selectively hear and see only what satisfies our needs, while ignoring signs he may not be good for us. Only when we change our own attitudes toward men will they have to change theirs.

Men weren't born with a predisposed desire to hurt women, as some of us may think. And they wouldn't have been getting away with their nonsense for so long had we not let them. Yes, we allow them to be spoiled boys who can put us on guilt trips, or to melt our hearts with the curl of a smile, or to lower our resistance with a good dose of affection. And while we're apologizing from the guilt, melting from the smile, or letting our guard down for the sweetness of affection, they shoot straight for our hearts and get what they want with so little effort. And what do we end up with in the long run? Pain, disillusionment, and a cynical attitude about men.

We put men on pedestals, we give them too much credit. We give men too much importance in our lives. And we often don't make men own up to their sometimes inconsiderate, selfish, cold, mean behavior. We tell them their behavior is all right by not saying anything. We tell them it's acceptable by still being there for them. We actually create the monsters we're complaining about.

We know that candy isn't good for us, but that doesn't stop us from enjoying our chocolate fixes and other treats. We complain about putting on weight but keep eating the sweets and yummy things we find it so hard to resist.

So how do change the pattern? Complaining isn't necessarily going to stop a man's unacceptable behavior. Apologetically letting him know what bothers us isn't either. Identifying the problem, putting a limit on what we'll tolerate, and changing our response when the limit is reached might get through to him.

I hate the word needy. It has such a pathetic connotation. Self-help books tell us that if we're needy, we're weak, not in control, and in general, something that's not good. Everybody is at least somewhat needy. That's what life is about - looking to satisfy needs.

Being in need isn't always bad, but some needs - and how much we need them - are healthier than others. Having an unrealistic or obsessive desire for something, a need that affects many aspects of your life and peace of mind, will create problems. It's natural to want people in our lives who we associate with bringing us comfort. We all have a need to be liked and to be secure. It's normal to have a strong desire for a special man to be part of our lives. But when we're troubled by the behavior we use to fulfill these needs, it's time to re-evaluate ourselves.

There's a definite distinction between being needy and wanting something in your life. I love the intimacy that being in a relationship provides. But I don't consider myself needy. I'd love cheesecake everyday but I can live without it. It's perfectly normal to crave something that gives you pleasure as long as it doesn't consume you.

Love is one of the necessities of life. No matter how strong we are - no matter how successful and independent - we all need our love for our well-being. It's just healthier to keep our need for love in perspective.

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A New Discovery

Jul. 26th, 2008 | 11:31 pm

I just discovered something tonight ~ something heartbreaking. And even though I already found out I have to pretend that there's nothing wrong. So I'm wondering, is it worth it? What do I really get out of it? It is difficult fighting for something which you know in the end is the one that's causing you pain. Am I really that numb ~ or should I say DUMB? To think that I completed college and working as a professional, I still can be duped. And by none other than the person I trust the most. The one person I have the utmost faith in when it comes to principles. And the thing is, I tried to cry. No tears are coming out ... WHY? God knows how I feel. If there is a God. At least I still haven't stopped believing. I still go to church, I still pray, and I believe in miracles. So maybe this is too much to ask, who knows? Who will judge that? In the end, maybe the old adage would still apply ~ good things come to those who wait. So, I'll wait... until when? Now that is a good question. 


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Training Team Building at Canyon Cove

Jul. 20th, 2008 | 04:55 pm

July 9, 2008 - plans were set up, everything was ready and the tourist bus in front of SM Mall of Asia started loading a little past 6 am of members of Dell Pasay's Training and CEC Team. Everyone (except Rey the princess whose XXXL shirt did not fit) was wearing the official periwinkle blue shirt of the Training organization. After 3 stopovers, we finally got to Canyon Cove in Nasugbu, Batangas. When we saw the place, we knew we were in for a very fun and enjoyable day. It was refreshing to find a place whose website contained actual pictures!! First thing on the agenda was breakfast. Even though it was just arroz caldo, it was a treat since food was catered by Makati Skyline. After breakfast, we were assigned 3 rooms. One for my XPS team, another for DOC and another for the CEC team. The activities by host and conceptualizer, Jerome, were short and fun and the agenda included a modified volleyball game (wherein my team finished as runner-up) and Picture It! done on the sand. There was awards and recognition and after lunch, we were free to laze around the pool and the beach. Everyone needed a break and the timing was perfect for this team building.


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An Eventful Day

Jul. 20th, 2008 | 04:51 pm

Today was a full day for me. The other day while we were at his cousin's place, Rene offered to have my car's audio system (which was pre-loaded) to be set up. Boy, was I ecstatic! I have always loved music and though my car's stereo was ancient, this was ok for me. As long as I have something to keep me company during my daily 1-2 hour trip to work.When I'm travelling, I prefer to have my iPod handy, of course. Anyway, enough of the explanations... we went to our long-time friend in Banawe and had her design something nice for my hatchback. I went there today and had everything installed. Instead of waiting around (I knew my car was in capable hands), I headed over to the Bleach n Stain Wash Day which featured a Mafia motif for this shoot. Brought my two sons with me (Stephen and Sean) along with Stephen's girlfriend, Nikki. Got to the studio, applied makeup, donned a costume and was ready to strike a pose. Too bad, I didn't tote Stephen's brand-new SLR (just like Stephen told me), else we would have gotten more shots! One good thing though was that Rommel was there. So, he was the one who took extra shots for us hehe. Headed back to Banawe and picked up my car, went to Dayrit's at ABS-CBN for lunch with Sean while Stephen headed back to school for his prelims. Brought home a roast beef platter for Rene (this is his favorite) and showed off my brand-new sound system. I still have not recovered from my upper respiratory tract infection but today's runabout was well worth it.

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Repairing a Relationship

Jun. 17th, 2008 | 05:37 pm

 It has been 6 months since my husband and I separated but I can happily say that we're on the road to recovery now. I have been errant and I cannot blame my behavior solely on him. He had shortcomings but reciprocating with the things I did should not have been my solution. I have realized a lot of things and I can honestly say that I have grown to not only love him more but respect what we have right now. We are trying to repair what has been destroyed and I am really happy that things are working out. Though we're still not together, we're spending quality time together. This is a whole lot better than what we had before and who knows... it may be just a matter of time when we'll be whole again. Cheers!

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David Cook wins!

May. 22nd, 2008 | 06:04 pm

American Idol Season 7 has officially come to a close and the winner is ~ ~ (drum roll) none other than David Cook. I was about to blog about last night's finale performance wherein I was going to express disappointment over his performance as compared to rival David Archuleta's singing. Add to that the fact that David A has already a teen and tween fan base (and probably a Mormon one since he hails from Utah), I was really expecting David A to win the crown. I wasn't a fan of David Cook when AI started. As evidenced by previous blogs I've posted, I was rooting for Dave Hernandez. Unfortunately, he was the first to get booted off. The women who were part of the Top 12 were great singers (with the exception of Kristy Lee Cook) but the men obviously outshine them. I don't really know what contributed to David's and I could only assume and here are some of my assumptions: America really thinks he's a flexible and outstanding talent (as he is the only one in the Top 12 group who thinks outside of the box and doesn't go with the usual run-of-the-mill performance) or maybe it is true that the Philippines actually helped put him there. I heard over Magic 89.9 that with the proliferation of contact centers here in the Philippines and the fact that these centers (including Dell hehe) have access to 1-800 or 1-866 numbers actually enabled Filipinos to vote for and show support for David Cook. Whatever the reason may be, I am just ecstatic that David Cook won. I am just looking forward now to his future visit to the Philippines and experience first-hand his singing prowess.

David Cook poses backstage after being crowned this year"s "American Idol" in Los Angeles, Wednesday, May 21, 2008. (AP Photo/Chris Pizzello)

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